paradisaooc | looks like a drop, smells like a drop....

So...sadly, this is going to be a "I need to loosen my load and cut back" post...

I'm experiencing a huge burn out lately, as I'm sure people have noticed. Instead of having rare days where I don't feel like tagging, I have rare days where I do. I've been hoping this would right itself and that I could work it out somehow, but I'm just....struggling. With RP in general and with RL stuff, and so the fun for me seems to be...going out the window. And I really hate that.

I've been debating over who I might let go, who I might keep, and if I should stay or leave completely. I adore my crew and all of their CR so much, and none of these choices are easy. While I know that maybe dropping could help me get my brain going again, I just love you guys and this place too much to go completely. As such I've decided to narrow myself down to one character and give that a go for awhile instead of leaving.

SO after weighing things out, like what comes easier, whose voice is loud, who has more CR and such...it leaves me with Paige. Which means that all of my boys are going home. Again, I love them and their CR and this was NO easy choice to make. At all. It breaks my heart big time and I'm really going to miss them being here.

I feel really bad, and I'm so sorry. You guys deserve more from me and I just can't seem to give it right now. I'm also sorry for whatever waning this may have brought to any CR or potential CR recently. But I'm hoping that by doing this I can get back into action, even if it's just with one character. I know I haven't been around in ~~recent weeks~~ forever, but I'm going to work on that. I hope this hasn't soured me too much in anyone's eyes.

I'm also soooo sorry, because I know the timing of this sucks and that A LOT of my boys' CR is involved in the current mini-plot going on.

So....this affects Larry Paul, Xander Harris, and Alec Hardison. None of them have much in terms of possessions, but I did want to list a few things left behind:

Larry
Fred will get the picture of Larry and his son that he got for Christmas from the castle this year.

Xander
His roommates will get everything, except his alien movies which will go to Sweets, and his supply of fruit roll-ups which will go to Ray.

Hardison
His pillows will go to Del, his grapple gun that Wybie left him will go to Coraline, and his remote control helicopter will go to Ange.

And...I think that's it. Thank you to ALL of the CR and almost CR they had while they were here. Especially Larry as...he is unknown and hard to play anywhere. Who knows, maybe one of them will be back someday.

I really am sorry, guys. I...know I keep apologizing, but I just feel the need. I've been told I have a problem with that. I'll stop :/

As always you can find me on plurk @ lovethyskittles or on the very very rare occasion, on AIM under the same handle. I haven't been around a whole lot in an OOC fashion either, so when in doubt the best way to reach me is probably by PM.

~Skittles

P.S. I'll get back to my Paige tags after work possibly or tomorrow. I need a moment.